Understanding Chaos

Its interesting to note how Chaos hits you at a point of time in your life and stays with you forever. A lot of people, however, beg to differ from this opinion. Some say that it is always present.....might be but the realization still hits you at a single moment of time.....anyways I am more pre-occupied with the chaos and co-existence of chaos and harmony....understanding chaos is something I dont really bother myself with.....atleast not yet.
But before I begin this discourse, I wish to bring in a clarity of thought about a few facts. Firstly, this is a work with absolute objectivity. An objectivity towards myself and myself alone. I donnot wish to get into the discussion that wanders aimlessly, looking to prove my existence because if there is no me, the purpose of that debate is irrelevant...............................to be continued............

Numb

Starting Post Grad School, especially in Journalism can make things difficult. And if the city is Chennai, your misery is increased exponentially. At this point of time, I must inform my audiences that this is my third week in the city and all I have achived successfuly is a through and rigorous critique of the city. So, this is an effort to vomit out ( wow! that rings a bell after the weekend party) all the frustrations once and for all. I am in desparate need for breaking ice between myself and Chennai.
For starters, this city has a completely non existent night life.....parties are hi teas....n i have'nt met a soul that trips on anything close to psy! The food sucks, most of it is sour and no KFC! let me not mention that I have almost forgotten the taste of good butter chicken and butter nans...........man do I miss Shikara 'n good ol' Sanjha Chulla rools....and I m droolin!....hey....suddenly I dont feel like complaining any longer.......................jus hope can say it the next time I am back.......and all that remains is a silence with these words by Pink Floyd whispering in my ears......

Hello.

Is there anybody in there?

Just nod if you can hear me.Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.I hear you’re feeling down.

Well I can ease your pain,Get you on your feet again.

Relax.I need some information first.

Just the basic facts:Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.

A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.

You are only coming through in waves.

Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’.

When I was a child I had a fever.

My hands felt just like two balloons.

Now I got that feeling once again.I can’t explain, you would not understand.

This is not how I am.

I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.Just a little pinprick.There’ll be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!

But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up? I do believe it’s working. good.

That’ll keep you going for the show.

Come on it’s time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.

A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.

You are only coming through in waves.

Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’.

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,

Out of the corner of my eye.

I turned to look but it was gone.

I cannot put my finger on it now.

The child is grown, the dream is gone.

I have become comfortably numb.